{"id":400,"date":"2011-03-23T07:42:39","date_gmt":"2011-03-23T11:42:39","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/robzerrvations.com\/?p=400"},"modified":"2012-03-21T06:52:11","modified_gmt":"2012-03-21T10:52:11","slug":"but-it-looks-right-to-me","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/robzerrvations.com\/?p=400","title":{"rendered":"But It Looks Right To Me!"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>When I was in first grade, I really liked Mrs. Hanks. I was attending Kennydale Elementary School and she was my first real school teacher. Of course, I had attended kindergarten, but it wasn&#8217;t like real school because all we seemed to do all day was finger paint and play with toys all day.<\/p>\n<p>But 1st grade was different. I was in big boy school. I was even scheduled to be the door monitor at recess the next day. I was supposed to hold the door open while my classmates went to recess and returned. A big responsibility.<\/p>\n<p>I never got to be door monitor, though. Instead, I got moved to Mrs. Williams&#8217; class across the hall. I didn&#8217;t know why. No one ever told me. At least not until I was in high school.<\/p>\n<p>It was then that my mother one day blurted the truth out. She was talking to a fellow mom when she casually said, &#8220;Well, you know Robb had that same problem. That&#8217;s why they moved him into Mrs. Williams&#8217; class.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I was just grabbing something to eat in the kitchen at the time. I spun on my heels and looked piercingly at my mom. &#8220;What problem? What are you talking about?&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>&#8220;Oh, you didn&#8217;t know? You had Slow Learning Disability and Mrs. Williams was one of the first teachers in the country to be trained in teaching kids like you.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I didn&#8217;t know whether I should feel real special at the moment or like a leper. All these years I had wondered why I had been suddenly taken out of Mrs. Hanks&#8217; class and placed in Mrs. Williams&#8217;. I thought I had been bad or something.<\/p>\n<p>It sounded horrible. Slow Learning Disability, or SLD for short. What I would later come to understand was that I suffered from dyslexia. Or should I say, I still do. It doesn&#8217;t go away. You always have it.<\/p>\n<p>And boy, do I have it. For those who know me, I think you&#8217;ll agree this describes me pretty well:<\/p>\n<ol>\n<li>High in IQ, yet may not test well                    academically; tests well orally, but not written.<\/li>\n<li>Talented in art, drama, music, story-telling, sales, business,                    designing, building.<\/li>\n<li>Seems to &#8220;Zone out&#8221; or daydream often; gets lost easily or loses                    track of time.<\/li>\n<li>Learns best through                    hands-on experience, demonstrations, experimentation, observation, and visual aids.<\/li>\n<li>Extremely keen sighted and observant.<\/li>\n<li>Has extended hearing; hears things not said or apparent to others; easily distracted by sounds.<\/li>\n<li>Clumsy,                    uncoordinated, poor at ball or team sports; difficulties with fine and\/or gross motor skills and tasks;                    prone to motion-sickness.<\/li>\n<li>Has difficulty telling time, managing time, learning sequenced information or tasks, or being on time.<\/li>\n<li>Has difficulty counting objects and dealing with money.<\/li>\n<li>Excellent long-term memory for experiences, locations, and faces.<\/li>\n<li>Poor memory for sequences,  facts                    and information that has not been experienced.<\/li>\n<li>Extremely disorderly or compulsively orderly.<\/li>\n<li>Strong sense of justice;                    emotionally sensitive; strives for perfection.<\/li>\n<li>Mistakes and symptoms increase dramatically with                    confusion, time pressure, emotional stress, or poor health.<\/li>\n<\/ol>\n<p>I know. Scary, isn&#8217;t it. An average person only has to show 10 out of 37 signs to be considered dyslexic. I clock in with 18 to 20.<\/p>\n<p>And yet, I have learned to use my dyslexia to my advantage.<\/p>\n<p>As I have written previously, misunderstanding has helped me name a couple companies, including my own. I hear differently and that ability has helped me as a writer because I often turn a great phrase not because I am so creative, but because I had either jumbled something up in my head or had misheard it.<\/p>\n<p>I think it&#8217;s also caused me a lot of problems in relationships. It certainly did in the last few. Because I can&#8217;t follow logic very well &#8212; never have &#8212; I would eventually stop following the train of thought and loop back around on a conversation. Instead of a logical A-B-C-D discussion, mine would be more like, A-B-E-N-G-A-E. It wasn&#8217;t that I was trying to be difficult. I just couldn&#8217;t follow the progression of thought. To quote Jessica Rabbit, &#8220;I was just born that way.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>Sure, you could say I&#8217;m using this as an excuse. But I only came to know about the symptoms a year or two ago. While I knew I was dyslexic, I never understood how it affected you, even down to being prone to motion sickness and having a high pain threshold. And, of course, I have always sucked at sports. What an eye opener.<\/p>\n<p>With all the issues I have had flipping letters and numbers, it&#8217;s kind of humorous that I ended up being a writer. I couldn&#8217;t be an accountant. It just doesn&#8217;t add up. And I never would have cut it as a surgeon because I have &#8220;shiny object syndrome&#8221; as well. As I said, I really have trouble keeping track of sequences. So I would probably not only leave a sponge or two in the patient, but probably forget to suture them up as well before calling it a day.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s kind of odd learning all this now. I look back at my years in school, jobs and relationships and I can suddenly see patterns. It wasn&#8217;t that I was trying to be difficult or that I was trying to cause trouble. I simply don&#8217;t always understand the world around me or what others are trying to say. And, of course, I am often off in some other world, connecting the dots where there are no dots and no straight lines.<\/p>\n<p>It happened to me again last night, as a fact. I was talking to my girlfriend and out of the blue she said, &#8220;You look at me funny sometimes.&#8221; I asked what that meant. She just said, &#8220;You look at me oddly.&#8221; I knew what she was saying. Because sometimes I can be in the middle of a conversation but my brain is skipping ideas like they&#8217;re flat rocks on a stream. My brain can be doing several things at once and it really has a hard time staying on task.<\/p>\n<p>Now what was I saying?<\/p>\n<p>From the Treasure Coast, thankfully flipping letters instead of burgers,<\/p>\n<p>&#8211; Robb<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>When I was in first grade, I really liked Mrs. Hanks. I was attending Kennydale Elementary School and she was my first real school teacher. Of course, I had attended kindergarten, but it wasn&#8217;t like real school because all we seemed to do all day was finger paint and play with toys all day. 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